Insight

Sticking to personal issues, I figured I would dig down deep and really give you some insight into me. I really have been through a lot the beginning of this year, but I have also learned oh so much about myself and just life in general. “I may hate somethings about myself, but I don’t regret a thing.” One of the first things I blogged about myself on LadiesLoop was that I went through a really bad relationship about three or four months ago and it took a lot out of me. I got hurt in so many ways and it is still a struggle even now to get past all that happened.

One thing I keep thinking about and that will always be on my mind, is that I never want to get hurt again. The way I got hurt by my ex cannot compare to anything I have ever gone through in life. It was emotionally and physically draining and it took a long time to really feel like myself again. The reason I am talking about this is because there is a point to all this. While I was dating this guy, he mentioned how bad he had been hurt in the past, by past girlfriends, friends, and even his own family – how people always left him in the end. Because of all of that he never trusted me, he was always afraid of getting hurt, he critized every little thing I did, and most of all he thought I was like every other person out there who had hurt him.

The reason I am telling you all this is because although he hurt me so bad, I am not going to become like him. I am not going to sleepwalk through life and be afraid to take another leap and fall for someone else. Yes, I am going to take more time to take it slow and really get to know them before I let myself fall in love again, but I am and will always continue to be a trusting person. I trust people until they give me a reason not too. I want to believe everyone is good and has some good in them. Maybe it will get me in trouble and I may get hurt again, but you can’t be scared to find the person that you are meant to fall in love with, and you surely can’t do that by not trusting them. Love is all about trust. You cannot have one without the other.

The moral of my story is that as much as I was hurt, my heart broken into a million little pieces, I don’t regret any of it one bit. I wouldn’t have learned about love, heartbreak, trust, and how to grow from each and every thing that has happened in my life. I wouldn’t have learned that it is possible to be a better person after being so broken down and vulnerable. Most importantly I would not have learned that it’s okay to fall in love. You cannot be afraid to fall in love in life and get your heartbroken sometimes. Yes, you cannot be naive and stupid in trusting someone, but if you truly take the time to take it slow to get to know that person and really let you friendship grow into an everlasting love, then I think you will realize that you have found that right person.

Meet > Friends > Date > Fall in Love

It may seem old fashioned and traditional, but why rush something that is supposed to last for the rest of your life?

 

 

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